I thought I would die.
I can't die... I can die... I can't... I can...
I bite myself, it hurt and I stopped.
I scratched myself, it hurt and I stopped.
I just wanted to feel the pain,
I just wanted to see the scars.
After all it was just too painful to die.
I want to die tonight, because living is painful,
I want to die tonight, because there's too many ugly truths.
I want to die tonight, because there's so many things I wanted but I just can't do.
I want to die tonight, because it might take away my sorrows,
I want to die tonight, because I don't want to live till tomorrow.
I want to die tonight, because I feel I'm so not loved,
I want to die tonight, because I'm just so lost.
If I die tonight, probably no one realize till my corpse smells.
If I die tonight, probably there'll be a never-ending-critics,
If I die tonight, probably it will be pathetic.
If I die tonight, probably I become a fool,
If I die tonight, probably I'll never be considered successful.
If I die tonight, I'll never know that I'm actually loved,
If I die tonight, I might be more lost.
No one realises me, it's the compensation of how I treated people.
No one wanted to be close, because how I behaved turned them away.
No one loves me.. because I don't even love myself.
I deserved all the hatred!
I can't die.
It is not that easy.
I deserve better..
Maybe it's not the time.
Come back,
Let the Demon fade but the Angel glows.
Let Him bring you to the lights and never lost in the night.
It might not be the time yet, but soon I'll get.
I gasped near death,
but I'm glad I survived.
