Im Fine?

Do you think that I'm really fine?

I hope I'm fine.

Die is my fantasy, but live is the reality. Too bad that I have to face reality. At least I still know that i'm living in a real world.

some times i feel life is so empty..
in fact..
most of the time I do..

It is just in me..

After jon's class..
i know where i'm standing..

but just that i dun have the drive in me..

empty soul.

Too bad that I can't improve..

Too bad that I be yours because I don't deserve it.
im trying though, but shall try harder.

Can't wait for both of you to come back..

to feel my life is real again.

But the truth is..
i don't need anyone, i just need myself...
but, i don't trust myself.

i can't die and i can't live..
i'm stucked in the middle...
i just want a peace of life..
i think i should just go become a nun or smthg.. seriously.

i think is that 'nature' of me again....

life must go on rite.. maybe that i haven't find that 'kick' in my life yet.
i'm fine. I'll be fine.

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