Sunday, November 30, 2008

Frustrated again...

Alrite..
Im Frustrated again!
Again!
again and again!!!
I really dunnoe how to convince you
I cannot communicate with you.
I really feel like banging my head on the wall
Tell me how ,
Tell me how only you will open and clear up your mind and accept all the advises?
I hate you, But I love you more.
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Please, Please....
Do not torture me like that!!!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

The frustrated Me!

My relationship with my mom has never be good.
We are oppositions;
I shall not say is from the beginning, but I just dunnoe since when we are in the total extreme edges.

I feel very frustrated to quarrel every day..
We quarrel even from the starting of a day..

She's picking up unhealthy eating habits.
She drinks in early of the morning with empty stomach;
She eat a bowl of mee added with a spoon full of oil;
She drinks water added with few lumps of sugar;
She cooks and keeps food and consume over night food;
etc..etc..

Not that I did not tell her, is that she will listen to no one.
I tried, we tried, the doctors tried.
She accepts no one's advises.

Yes.
Thank you every one for ranking be deep low as a bad kid.
Indeed, I am!
I used to not smoke, I used to not drink, I used to not going out mixing with new 'friends'.
BUT, NOW I DO!
Yes. I am a bad child. So?
What is the heck wrong with you people?
Yes, I didn't take up driving lesson and I have to depend on my mom.
SO? You come sponsor me la!
I never be credited and all you all can c is my bad side.
Well, maybe that is the most obvious part that every one can c.
In fact, now I'm quite confuse of myself whether I have a good side ornot.

But tell you what,
I do not like to quarrel with my mom.
If I'd given a chance, I'll never.

and you noe what?
I LOVE MY MOM!
but my love has never be accepted.


p/s: I have not be crying for 3 days. Big improvement. I don't thk I have time for it..

Sunday, November 23, 2008





I'm


struggling

Btwn
my


ID

and SUPEREGO!!!!

Everyday!!!!!



iz very suffering!!!!!!!

The very ill me.

Recently I've been very moody.
I cried n cried for no reasons.
( in fact, there are! )
Okie.. I should learn how to open up.
Once or twice in a week I'll break down.
I'll cry and scream like a mad woman.
Even some times I would have thought of hurting myself.
I'm struggling between my ID and Super Ego.
I broke down so frequently that I think I'm getting sick (mad).

I'm ill... really ill!
I'm going to be crazy if this continues.
I'm really a person with troubles.
I'm totally a messed up case!

I need loves and cares.
I need some one's hugs when I'm down.
I need to be cheered up.
I want Happiness I want Love!

I know that I'm having all the loves from every one of you.
I know you, you, you and you are so caring and willing to share your ears and shoulders.
I know I know, but I yet to learn how to open up my heart.